Learning to Walk, Not Sprint in Faith

At the start of my faith walk, I tried to become the “perfect” Christian overnight. I gave up cussing, drinking, smoking weed, dressing immodestly, gossiping, and even stopped listening to ungodly music. I dove headfirst into my new life, trying to do everything right all at once. I was impatient, chasing an image of perfection instead of allowing God to take His time with me. I didn’t realize that by rushing my faith, I wasn’t building a strong foundation—I was setting myself up to fall.

When my faith was tested, I broke. I went back to my old ways, overwhelmed by guilt and confusion. I had tried to change everything on the outside without letting God transform me on the inside. And I was doing it all alone. I didn’t have a mentor or anyone to guide me. I didn’t know how to walk with Jesus day by day—I was just trying to meet a standard I didn’t understand. I wanted a guideline for how to live, but what I really needed was grace.

After that, I ran from God. For about six months, I was fully immersed in the world again. I questioned everything—Is God even real? If He is, why would He let me go back to the very things I gave up? But in that season, I started to see the truth: the world I was living in wasn’t where I wanted to be. I wasn’t truly happy. I saw people around me laughing, partying, and seemingly enjoying life—but their happiness wasn’t my happiness. I needed something deeper.

That’s when I began to understand: my happiness isn’t found in the world—it’s found in Jesus. I had to stop chasing what everyone else had and start seeking what only He could give me: peace, purpose, and true joy.

I’m not perfect. But I’m walking with God now—slowly, honestly, and with a heart that wants more of Him. If you’re trying to figure it all out too, know this: you’re not alone. God’s not rushing you. He just wants your heart, one step at a time. 🤍